bahbahbah

shit, i think my insomnia is comeing back..i awoke at 4.30, and its now 6.20...it's been comeing back slowly but surely...like i go to sleep at later hours, and wake up at earlier hours...it sucks...it really really sucks

amanda mabey
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we lie on the matress
and tumble to sleep
swadled in our blankets
cradeled in our arms
our eyes aligned
and we put this from pen to paper
but were shall we begin
perhaps we start with our shoes
that hold our feet
as they march us thru the durges of hell
my porcilin doll (eyes painted grey)
your lace wings fickled flight
and we're in the stratosphere
where our pen takes us to our hands
as the crawl and hold
each other fair
dangiling in the inky oblivion
and in our subtle rotation
a humble notion
we softly fall in the air
gently as the light from a star
(forever?) i dont think i understand
and we lay in a garden
a rose doth alights another
and we cling like puzzle pices
peatles soft
i need you here
i know i need you here
i need you here
beautique
unique
amanda (mabey)

not very good i know..but then again i only got...4 hours of sleep, so dont expect too much...but seriously, this is becomeing a concern to me...i think im gonna tell my doctor about it, Dr. O'neill, but he was the one who told me to take ritilin, because he thought i had ADHD...but im prolly the quietest person i know...hmmm, well, it's worth a shot...i actually heard some kid say that he loves haveing insomnia....but i know that that is utter bullshit, and i told him its te most horrible thing in the world...and told him to fucking quit watching fight club....seriously, id rather have my bipolar relapse again then go thru this insomnia thing again...that'll mean that i fucking have four disorders....fuck WHY ME!!! haha..but seriously....im like the only one in my family who has any chronic illness..the only one....on both sides of the family...wow...stupid recessive genes..although my grandma was an alcholic...hmm, at leat im not one of those..............